I have started my study of Italian and right now, I can say maybe half a dozen words: milk, right, left, Ladies restroom , men's restroom, bye, and water and a few other words. and I can count to 4! :) it's so dorky but it's a start. a small start but a start. the thing that I love the most about teaching myself Italian is that I can do it my way, as slow as I want. I am not forced to learn at the speed someone else is teaching me at and I don't have to feel like I am behind or that I am not as good as everybody else because I learn slower than them. I am so proud of myself because I can say those myabe half a dozen Italian words, and I know I can learn this! everytime I use my software to study, since I have not started Italian grammar yet, I get so excited and I get confidence. I know it may sound crazy, but learning Italian gives me confidence in myself. it gives me confidence that I am capable of doing things and that I don't have to do them the same way everybody else does. I can teach myself Italian the way I think it will work best for me, and it works! it may not be in a classroom or with a tutor, but it is me and it works. it gives me pride in myself that I can do this, even if it slower and will take awhile. it gives me pride and confidence that maybe I can do things and I can accomplish things, just maybe slower than other people, or at least at my own pace. maybe it is okay to do things my way and not just do them the way other people expect of me. I guess I am learning, besides Italian, that it is okay that the way things work for other people is not necessarily the way it works for you. maybe learning languages in a classroom, fast pace is good and works for other people, but it doesnt neccesarily work for me. or I suppose it does work for me, but the BEST way for me is at my own pace. so maybe it's more about the BEST way it would work for you. my way of self teaching is slow, it is baby steps and small amounts of information, but I believe that in the end, I will learn this language.
Brent Bailey turning me down, along with having no romantic experince at al and being turned down by every guy I've ever liked, and not even having been on a date, does hurt my pride and my confidence and makes me doubt myself and who I am. Italian, learning Italian is a good counteract to that. it gives me pride in myself and confidence. plus, it is such a sexy language and I LOVE it!!






